Curiosity

This is the post the you’re going to read before you harass me with repetitive questions.

TATTOO?! Aren’t you aware of what you’re doing?!

Yes, I’m aware that tattoos are permanent. Yes, I’m aware that people change and minds change. Yes, I’m aware that skin gets old and wrinkly. Yes, I’m aware that not everyone likes tattoos. Yes, I’m aware that it hurts like all hell (obviously, at this point).

But I thought Tim was such a smart boy! What went wrong?

Nothing went wrong. You don’t have to be a miscreant to get a tattoo, and they’re not as uncommon as you think. If you’re implying it’s a foolish choice to get a tattoo, well, just about anyone that has a tattoo will disagree with you. The naysayers are rarely those with tattoos – and in general, those that regret their tattoos got them while completely blasted with their frat buddies. That’s a fact.

Where would you get such a stupid idea from?

The same place anyone gets an idea from – other people. Nobody suggested it to me, but two people in my sociology class were discussing their tattoos, and I found myself intrigued and looked into it myself.

How did you decide you wanted a tattoo at all?

I can’t really say, it was just something that really interested me. You don’t know you want one until you find what you want.

What is that? A flaming wombat?

That’s a phoenix.

That’s gay. Why would you get a phoenix?

Traditionally, a phoenix represents immortality, regeneration, and rebirth. As I was reading Mere Christianity, it struck me that these are themes heavily carried within my faith, but ill-represented in popular culture and within the faith itself. The phoenix has been occasionally used in early church history, but never made its place as a standard symbol, given its stronger mythological nature that couldn’t be altered towards Christianity’s needs.

If you don’t know, the general idea is that a phoenix will live for several hundred / thousand years (depending on where in the world you are), and at the end of its life cycle, will make itself a death nest (in some lore it would be a nest of cinnamon twigs) and its ashes will produce a phoenix egg, continuing the cycle.

Along with having some very nifty lore that, for whatever reason, manages to stay consistent across many cultures (and indeed it’s bizarre that it exists in multiple, independant cultures at all), it also carries a lot of fantasy weight to it. I had considered a dragon, but really, they’re overdone and don’t represent much. It carries the imaginative weight that other mythological creatures do, but maintains a sense of meaning and purpose to it.

On top of all that, the colors are my favorite. I’ve had orange on black as my font coloring for years, now. My forum/IM avatars and desktop backgrounds are generally dark, and were for a very long time orange on black (in fact, the fractal I have right now is what I’ve been using for a very long time). It’s just a color scheme I love, and it takes a really wicked and unique form in the shape of a phoenix.

Where’d you get the design?

For those that haven’t seen it:

I found it after about three hours of searching the internet. I have no idea who made it, and I tried my best to find out, to no avail.

How much did it hurt, how long did it take?!

A shitload. But, no pain, no gain. If you want some kind of idea of what it feels like, imagine a very precise power sander, or the feeling of a dull knife quickly running across your skin. The artist noted that I chose a pretty intense spot. Portions of the design run across my sternum – which produced some pretty intense pain that I really can’t describe, but it sucked major balls. It makes it very hard to breathe and it’s impossible not to focus on it. The stuff closer to my armpit hurt more, and as well as the stuff near my collarbone.

Much of the pain was multiplied by the presence of shading. Though the picture makes it hard to see, there are no outlines in my tattoo – it’s all done in shades, no hard-set lines anywhere. She did the black first, which wasn’t so bad – because there were large amounts of it in each area, and it progressed fairly smoothly, there was something of a numbness to it all. However, when she ran across it in red, she started at the beginning – my skin had gone from numb to raw, and the sporadic nature of the coloring prevented any real numbness. The orange was equally bad. There wasn’t too much yellow, thankfully.

I was in the studio for three and a half hours, but the time spent needling was one hour and fifty-five minutes. That’s a lot, and I’m not sure I could have lasted much more than two and half hours. I started sweating like nobody’s business the minute she started – it was REALLY nasty.

How much did it cost?

$190. A $50 deposit was required when I handed her the design and made the appointment. She charge $100 an hour, but said she’d have capped it at $225. I also left a $20 tip.

Why’s it all shiny and crap? It looks messed up.

Tattoos take approximately ten days to heal. Given that the process is essentially leaving a giant, pretty wound on your skin, the first thing that happens is you bleed. Colors will be distorted by the blood and by the irritated/rash appearance of your skin. There’s also a lot of excess ink. My tattoo is currently raised off my skin from the excess ink, but as I continue to wash it, that will fade. At the same time, the tattoo will start to scab, as any wound would. This will create a glazed, dull, speckly appearance. Once the scabs fade, the dead skin needs to come off, which will make it appear flaky (and cause it to itch like nobody’s business).

That whole process will eventually leave the tattoo looking like it should – but as is, it’s a shadow of what it will be.

Where’d you get your tattoo? Why there?

Medusa tattoo, it’s a little place run by a rather nice woman. I chose there because she had a really excellent portfolio – her work was pretty awesome, the place was clean, and I felt comfortable. Other places in town didn’t look quite as good, and as I learned from guys at work, I made the right choice. Looking at the results has pretty much confirmed this.

What do your parents think?

I don’t know. I didn’t consult them before making this decision, but I did inform them I was getting one.

O.o

STOLEN FROM ELLIOTZORZ.

1. Kissed your cousin: Three words: WHAT_THE_CRAP.

2. Ran away: Newp.

3. Pictured your crush naked: What?

4. Skipped school: Nay.

5. Broken someone’s heart?: I don’t think so..

7. Cried when someone died: Yep, when my cousin died in 5th grade.

8. Wanted someone you knew you couldn’t have: Welcome to mah world.

9. Broken a bone: Not one.

10. Done something embarrassing: Most of the embarrasing stuff I do is partially on purpose.

11. Lied: Yeah, but not often at all.

12. Cried in school: Nope.

WHICH IS BETTER…

13. Coke or Pepsi: Coke.

14. Sprite or 7UP: Sprite.

15. Girls or guys: Girls.

16. Candy or flowers: How about candy flowers?

17. Mustache or goatee: Goatee, mustaches are grody.

18. Blondes or brunettes: Don’t make me choose. Please.

20. Tall or short: Tall.

21. Pants or shorts: Pants. They’re more stylish.

22. Night or day: Night. I’d every night outside if it were feasible. There’s always a cool breeze, the moon is beautiful, everything is calm.

ABOUT YOU…

29. Romantic memory: Romance? Hah. I wish.

30. Your good luck charm: N/A

31. Person you hate most: I am particularly lacking a fondness of the “greg” at my school. What a doofus.

32. Best thing that has happened lately: Buying Burnout 3.

33. On your desk: Kleenex, Dr Pepper, finger nail kit thingy, watch, keyboard, mouse, mouse pad, wallet, large roll of bills, change, leatherman, moniter.

34. Picture on your desktop: Two tanks from Halo.

35. Color[s]: Black, Red, Green, Deep Blue.

36. Movie[s]:

Unbreakable, Lord of the Rings Trilogy, The Matrix, Spiderman 2, The Bourne Identity, The Blues Brothers, Gladiator

37. Artist or band:

Bond, Coldplay, Moby, Modest Mouse, DJ Tiesto, Newsboys, Jars of Clay, DJ Doboy, Franz Ferdinand, Paul Oakenfeld

38. Car: Lambourghini.

39. Ice cream: Cookies n’ Cream.

41. Breakfast food: S’mores pop tarts with milk.

WHO…

42. Makes you laugh: Ben (Myers)

43. Makes you smile: Daniel or Gwen

44. Can make you feel better no matter what: Colette

45. Who has a crush on you: If someone did that, the world would come to an end. (Elliot wrote that but I thought it was fitting)

46. Do you have a crush on someone?: …

47. Who has it easiest?: HOMESCHOOLERS.

48. Gives you a funny feeling when you see them: the “greg” (from school) gives me nausia (pardon spelling), but other than that…

ETC…

49. Sit by the phone waiting for a phone call: No?

50. Save AIM conversations: I have over 10 MB of saved conversations, not including what I lost last time I reinstalled trillian. I automatically log everything. O.o

51. Save e-mails: Usually

52. Forward secret e-mails: No.

53. Wish you were someone else: Sometimes I wish I were a ninja, or a paladin, you know, that kind of thing.

54. Wish you were a member of the opposite sex: No.

55. Wear perfume: I’ve worn cologne on very rare occasions.

56. Kiss: Don’t make me laugh. Becuase…well…don’t make me cry. How about that?

57. Cuddle: Guess.

58. Sneak out: I have no reason to sneak out. So no.

59. Fallen for your best friend?: No.

60. Kissed two people in the same day?: Shut up.

62. Been rejected: I hate everyone who makes questions like this.

63. Been in love?: Don’t believe in true love at this point in life.

64. Been in lust?: Am I a teenage boy?

65. Used someone?: Oh yes, I am such a player and user.

66. Been used?: No.

67. Dumped someone?: Again.

68. Been cheated on?: Ditto.

69. Been kissed?: Again…..

70. Done something you regret?: Am I human?

WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON…

71. You touched?: Alex Barr.

72. You talked to?: Daniel.

73. You hugged?: Colette.

74. You instant messaged?: Gwen.

75. You yelled at?: Probably Daniel, lol.

76. You thought about?: I don’t actually know, I hadn’t thought about anyone until this question, but I guess Colette?

77. Who text messaged you?: No cell phone.

78. Who broke your heart?: Nobody.

79. Who told you they love you?: My fajah.

MORE ABOUT YOU…

80. Color of your hair?: Blonde to dirt blonde.

81. Have tattoos?: Never shall I let my body go through such a process.

82. Have piercings?: Look up.

83. Have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: Yet again.

84. Own a webcam?: No.

85. Own a thong?: NO.

86. Have any pets: Daisy and Sam, dogs.

87. Sprechen sie Deutsch?: Du bist einer Depp.

88. Habla espanol?: No.

89. Parlez vous francais?: Nobody likes France. Or Canada. So go back to Mexico.

HAVE YOU / DO YOU / ARE YOU…

90. Stolen anything?: Software and music..

91. Smoke?: No.

92. Schizophrenic?: It’s on my mom’s side genetically.

93. Obsessive?: Slightly, from my mom’s side.

94. Compulsive?: Again, from my mom’s side.

95. Obsessive compulsive?: Guess.

96. Panic?: Nope.

97. Anxiety?: Not really.

98. Depressed?: From my both sides of my family, I’ve shown signs of inheriting some of it.

I cut out a few just because they were that retarded.